Contrary to what Dedue may believe, Felix would never try to cut him out of Dimitri's life. For one thing, it would make Dimitri miserable. For another, Felix is very aware that there have been times when he couldn't give his king what he needed, and that during those times, Dedue was there to do it instead.
But if Dedue won't give them any time alone...if Felix can't be there with Dimitri the way he was that night at prom, when he searched and searched the mansion until he could hold his lover in his arms and bring him back to himself the only way Felix knows how, because Dedue insists on being there too...then where will that leave him? If Dedue will never leave Dimitri's side, then how will there be any room left for the rest of them?
Maybe he should tell Dedue about their relationship, after all.
But Felix doesn't want to. He doesn't want the man who took his place by Dimitri's side for all those years to be privy to this, too. He wants just one thing he can have with Dimitri that Dedue won't. Just one. Because if he doesn't have that, then...then what does Dimitri need Felix for?
He doubts Dedue would mind it if the answer became 'nothing.'
He blinks himself back to the present when the other man speaks again, even as Pan shifts in his lap to demand more consistent pets, which he provides as he responds.
"I have. We've spoken about a great many things. As I said, I've accepted my role as his Shield. Not for the sake of duty or any such meaningless thing. But for him, personally."
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But if Dedue won't give them any time alone...if Felix can't be there with Dimitri the way he was that night at prom, when he searched and searched the mansion until he could hold his lover in his arms and bring him back to himself the only way Felix knows how, because Dedue insists on being there too...then where will that leave him? If Dedue will never leave Dimitri's side, then how will there be any room left for the rest of them?
Maybe he should tell Dedue about their relationship, after all.
But Felix doesn't want to. He doesn't want the man who took his place by Dimitri's side for all those years to be privy to this, too. He wants just one thing he can have with Dimitri that Dedue won't. Just one. Because if he doesn't have that, then...then what does Dimitri need Felix for?
He doubts Dedue would mind it if the answer became 'nothing.'
He blinks himself back to the present when the other man speaks again, even as Pan shifts in his lap to demand more consistent pets, which he provides as he responds.
"I have. We've spoken about a great many things. As I said, I've accepted my role as his Shield. Not for the sake of duty or any such meaningless thing. But for him, personally."