[G'rhyf laughs weakly, leaning unconsciously into his touch. The hand at their eyes moves to rest on G'raha's arm, and the other tightens just a little bit into the fabric of his vest.]
...I was scared. Scared you'd find some part of me that proved I wasn't enough, or that--that as soon as I said anything, something would take you from me again. Or if you didn't feel the same and I just soured it all, or...any number of things. I felt like anything I might do would ruin this.
[The shy twining of their hands, tails brushing together by calculated chance. The way his ears wiggled in his delight, the sound of his laughter in voices both tired and so very bright. They remember the soft, worn smiles he gave as the Exarch and their heart twists once more--had he suspected? Held a flame of hope in his chest, to the very end?]
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[G'rhyf laughs weakly, leaning unconsciously into his touch. The hand at their eyes moves to rest on G'raha's arm, and the other tightens just a little bit into the fabric of his vest.]
...I was scared. Scared you'd find some part of me that proved I wasn't enough, or that--that as soon as I said anything, something would take you from me again. Or if you didn't feel the same and I just soured it all, or...any number of things. I felt like anything I might do would ruin this.
[The shy twining of their hands, tails brushing together by calculated chance. The way his ears wiggled in his delight, the sound of his laughter in voices both tired and so very bright. They remember the soft, worn smiles he gave as the Exarch and their heart twists once more--had he suspected? Held a flame of hope in his chest, to the very end?]
I'm so sorry it took me this long to say it.